The night we met you sang you loved me
yet you magpied the brightest parts of my smile and the twinkle in my eye

left locked out tapping on windows and
cramming love letters carved from chunks of me through your letter box
hoping you might take them , accept them
hoping you might unlock the door
hoping you might unlock the window
hoping you might unlock the cat flap ,
That's warped from the countless times I've had to suck and squeeze my way through
just to get to you , for you to label me a bitch

when I try leave you command my return ,
tossing cat treats of affections ,
staved ribs showing , i turn again and return as before
licking , love ? of the floor ,
swallowing all the dirt that comes with it

The brick walls you build collapse on me as I tear them down
the slice my skin , the shape of a scared cats pupil
bleeding till try
my barks and yelps for help are answered by more brick when i paw myself to the surface

my love is echoed but grows silent
my screams find themselves now unheard and unanswered
why , Blue blue blue , red

loving you feels like being addicted to poison ,
smoking your promises ,
snorting you lies ,
it rots me from the inside out ,
you complained of my rose coloured glasses but they where the only reason I stayed .

My tears hit the floor as you stand in the desert
the room throbs with pulses of Blue , Purple , RED , Red , red , blue

If you ever just came to me
I would open the door
serve you a meal of my heart
shower you with my care
clothe you in my skin
let you rest in my mind
RED BLUE
but good luck with the door
I lost it with my goodbyes