The sun and moon rose and set 8030 times before you were bom
and another 7300 before we met
and only 50 times while you were here

But what are numbers

50 sunrises that I noticed that I was awake for
that shined its energy upon me
which seemed to nourish me to bloom again
...I wonder why I never saw the other 15,280

But what are numbers

Unless you count the days and nights
I don’t hear from you
but those numbers are now more numb
than the first few days
and at times those 50 we shared gets blurrier and distant

But what are numbers

Unless you count the times my heart ached and choked and slowed as I tried to make
rhyme or reason out of those 50 which seem to not matter to one

But what are numbers

And I suppose 50 out of 15,330 is just a blip on the radar screen and that the other
15,280 should count for more

But what are numbers

And I suppose that the estimated 31,025 times you will see sunrises and sunsets will
mean more to you than the 50 we shared or so it seems since you stopped including
me in those numbers

But what are numbers

So if you take the 15,280 and divide that by 50 we shared really means that those 50
missing meant nothing to you.. .But I have to ask why those 50 seem so more vibrant
to me than the other 15,330
I saw before your 7300 that led to our crossing paths and
If you take 15,330 minus 15,280 that leaves 50 that I don’t understand and may
never

But what are numbers

Those 50 to me were days filled with dreams I thought would make the other 3 1,025
different
but it seems that those 50 get lost within the sum of it all and end up being a minus
for one

But what are numbers

Unless you are using the numbers that travel down cables and poles and underground
to my phone that is now silent I have to say now, what are numbers that don’t
matter to one?