With Love Still 1

can i even begin now at this time when the time is gone and past behind blue line? after times and eternities of changing and changes in between/ and yes you said so too and worry/ only now i have symbol of life and of the sea blue green mother of pearl with me/ my grandmother is sorry and talks of you still my grandfather having died also since lying in quiet pine box... did i tell you? / postcards from mexico now and then with no addresses until one day... (and i was surprised and my mother was happy too) but what is that? as you say / but better than nothing...