i stand in solidarity
craving for a hand to hold
for a warm touch to embrace me
instead, i'm chained like an animal
chained to something i hate rather than love

his dead cold stare hits the back of my neck
its icy presence so harsh and frozen
i hate being with him and hate this relationship
his existence makes me vomit
his life makes me die

at my prom i stood in the corner
trying to pry myself from his grip
even the few boys that asked me to dance
couldn't understand why i was forced to stay
they shook their heads in confusion and hurt

i watched them silently as i tried again
his grip still too strong for me to release
i prayed to get away in one piece
i prayed to finally live without him
to finally not be married to him

so sorry, boys, this man is with me
until death do us part
but the marriage wasn't consensual
nor do i even remember the ceremony
or any of the guests

i don't remember saying "i do,"
i don't remember the cake
or even the gown i was supposedly wearing
i can't remember any of it
but i can't get a divorce either

i just wish i could find a guy
who's grip is stronger than my husband's
who could pull me away from him
and change me into a happy girl
to bring me away from here

then i had the guts to throw my ring to the dirt
having enough of no fun
i let one man pull me hard enough
just hard enough to escape my husband's grip,
to save me from destruction of my own mind

after years of struggling i'm free
no longer am i in a failing marriage
i stand proudly as my husband still looms by
but no longer will i make the mistake
of legally being Mrs. Loneliness