pain

it starts in your chest doesn't it? then it flows to the rest of your body like an ocean waves splashing tidal waves inside your bones washing over your soul

it curls around your fingertips slipping up and down your arms dripping down your stomach to your legs it feels good it feels numbing the more splashing and crashing against your heart your lungs your bones your soul

it feels amazing the numbness washing you out the waves settle it's a calming sensation a nothingness sensation

then it's 3 in the morning tears are pouring down your cheeks pain doesn't exist anymore it's pure numbness succumbing to the thudding in your head the pressure on your heart then you realize

when did the pain become pleasure when did the pain surpass why can't i fix the broken pieces of my body? when did i left the ocean waves control my beach?