Lost

I can't help it That I'm always sad Or always hurt Forever tormenting myself Constantly lonely Continuously friendless Deliberately confused

That's all I know how to be. They're the only emotions I know The only ones I'mcomfortable with All I can be are this things

Because when I'm not I'm scared It's like being in an unknown area No matter how good for you it might be You have to admit that your lost

And you never know what might happen next So you become scared And you try so hard to find your way back To where you were before

If I'm the opposite of my normal feelings I'm lost Then I'm left yearning for that mental state all over again

But I know just because I want it Just because its good for me It doesn't mean that I should have it

So I stay where I belong Where I'm safe Where I'm comfortable

Because when I stray From my conventional state of mind I freak becoming unstable

So instead if hurting others I hurt myself