sense of numbness

the cold water pours down on me but i can't feel anything because the tingles come from within where it's fighting at this point im completely numb the numb overcomes my body; i can't see, can't feel, can't hear can't touch or smell either it's funny how one second i was crying and another i was just like another monster another robot another feelingless person it was like it didn't mean anything to me but you didn't know how much it did i felt myself being pulled into the void of numbness one second i was moving and the next it was like i had faded into nothing life still continued on, everyone resumed their activities i found myself thinking, why don't they care about me? and i later realized that i was doing everything i was supposed to do except "not let the numbness, the pain get to me" that was the only task i failed and no one noticed because i was in my own small world