I have been in a loosing fightBut I am trying to hideWith my smileEven though my skin is crawlingAnd the blood is in my fingernailsI pretend to laugh at what you sayI recognise your faceBut your hands don't feel safeI told you last night what happenedI told you about that fightI cut my hair off with a bladeTo erase all the traces of that girlI couldn't feel clean in my own skinSo i burnt it off(Just to torture myself)An angel that cut through the sky
The warm sun is failing, the bleak wind is wailing,The bare boughs are sighing, the pale flowers are dying,And the YearOn the earth her death-bed, in a shroud of leaves dead,Is lying.Come, Months, come away,From November to May,In your saddest array;Follow the bierOf the dead cold Year,And like dim shadows watch by her sepulchre.The chill rain is falling, the nipped worm is crawling,The rivers are swelling, the thunder is knellingFor the Year;The blithe swallows are flown, and the lizards each gone
I never lost as much but twice,And that was in the sod.Twice have I stood a beggarBefore the door of God!Angels -- twice descendingReimbursed my store --Burglar! Banker -- Father!I am poor once more!
The weight of misfortune has stooped my shouldersBut I don’t intend to stop for a good while yet;I afflict my own destinyAnd don’t want anyone to mourn for my fate.I’ve made peace with God on my lossesAnd agreed with him on the epitaphsThat should be written about my senseless wars.