I tried to tell themTell them about my demonsBut I was too lateNow that they took over meNobody will believeBelieve that I struggledI struggled keeping my demons from showingFrom coming out in the daylightThey took overAnd they hurt youNow I can't apologizeI'm not allowed toBecause you won't believe meBelieve that I'm sorryTears won't even tell you how sorry I am
On the verge of cryingI hide my face behind a maskIt hurts so muchI must eat my feelings until next dayWill I be able to not hint what I'm feeling?Will I be able to not explode?I'll try not to
The warm sun is failing, the bleak wind is wailing,The bare boughs are sighing, the pale flowers are dying,And the YearOn the earth her death-bed, in a shroud of leaves dead,Is lying.Come, Months, come away,From November to May,In your saddest array;Follow the bierOf the dead cold Year,And like dim shadows watch by her sepulchre.The chill rain is falling, the nipped worm is crawling,The rivers are swelling, the thunder is knellingFor the Year;The blithe swallows are flown, and the lizards each gone
I never lost as much but twice,And that was in the sod.Twice have I stood a beggarBefore the door of God!Angels -- twice descendingReimbursed my store --Burglar! Banker -- Father!I am poor once more!
The weight of misfortune has stooped my shouldersBut I don’t intend to stop for a good while yet;I afflict my own destinyAnd don’t want anyone to mourn for my fate.I’ve made peace with God on my lossesAnd agreed with him on the epitaphsThat should be written about my senseless wars.