My brother used to tell me a taleA humorous fiction about a manWho threw wide the doorBut wasn't thereYou could hear a bird chirpingOr a dog yippingThe door would unlockBut he wasn't thereI distress that will happenThat the door might openBut I won't be thereI unlock, turn, openDog barksNot thereNot coeval with the door
Last night I had no eyesAnd I grew ten clawsIt is probably becauseI am not myself most of the timeThat night it said, "I love you. I love you."I am not sure if I said it backBecause I was dreamingAnd you never know with dreamsThe day before a million fruit flies crawled outOf my mouthProbablyBecause I was not myselfOr maybeI just love fruit too muchThat was a jokeThat day he said, "Kill your self."
The biggest fears have no denouementIs a fear in itselfI tell people'Roller coasters scare me'But they endSome leave us tremblingOur legs to give out from under usThe tears starting and stoppingUntil whatUntil whenThere is no denouement for the worst onesAnd that is earth shattering
The space of the world is immense, before me and around me;If I turn quickly, I am terrified, feeling space surround me;Like a man in a boat on very clear, deep water, space frightens and confounds me.I see myself isolated in the universe, and wonderWhat effect I can have. My hands wave underThe heavens like specks of dust that are floating asunder.I hold myself up, and feel a big wind blowingMe like a gadfly into the dusk, without my knowingWhither or why or even how I am going.So much there is outside me, so infinitelySmall am I, what matter if minutelyI beat my way, to be lost immediately?
Long vast shapes... cooled and flushed through with darkness....Lidless windowsGlazed with a flashy lusterFrom some little pert cafe chirping up like a sparrow.And down among iron gutsPiled silverThrowing gray spatter of light... pale without heat...Like the pallor of dead bodies.
A Wife -- at daybreak I shall be --Sunrise -- Hast thou a Flag for me?At Midnight, I am but a Maid,How short it takes to make a Bride --Then -- Midnight, I have passed from theeUnto the East, and Victory --Midnight -- Good Night! I hear them call,The Angels bustle in the Hall --Softly my Future climbs the Stair,I fumble at my Childhood's prayerSo soon to be a Child no more --Eternity, I'm coming -- Sire,Savior -- I've seen the face -- before!