i don't want you back

you died, I was 9 and I cried tears bleached my eyes and then I forgot you, I missed you, but I forgot you I needed you, but I forgot you

the hand of a fatherly figure will haunt me forever and although you hurt her I'll love you forever I'll be looking for you wherever I'll be wanting the warmth of your body back

and it kills me the fact that the last time I touched you you were dead cold I remember the last kiss I gave your forehead you felt like stone and my lips were warmer than your heart my teeth moved more than your heart

dad, I don't want you back I need you I need anyone but everyone is never enough I need him I need someone but the idea of someone is what I want is what I'll never get you're dead you're dead you're dead I can yell all night in bed I can slit my throat I can leave a suicide note I can tear my teeth out of my mouth you're dead I'll never see you again