true colors of you

does your heart feel lighter now that i'm not there? now that i'm walking away. i'm accepting that you are water slipping through my fingers and i just cannot hold onto you no matter how desperately i try to grasp onto you. i miss your true colors, but i'm still finding out more and more about you. sometimes you're a bright yellow, that shines as bright as the sun. some days, you're a dark black that's darker than the skies at 3 a.m and although i want to love each and every color you show to me, i just simply can not hold onto you any longer. i started to love you more than i was loving myself and it's tearing me apart. i still don't love myself like i love you, im just growing farther and farther away from you, with the love im gaining back going into nothing.