I miss you Gram.

brings a tear to my eye everytime thinking and knowing you've passed I ignore it and i bear it only a year has passed I didn't cry, I don't know why well, yes I do I've chosen to ignore it mainly for selfish reasons more like an internal treason I can't let you go I miss you and i love you the dreams you sent to comfort me they hurt me but i know it was love that you sent letting me know I need to let you go I know I know I know your ok but I can't I don't speak of you but I think of you every chance that i get you were you are my grandmother I spent everyday of my childhood in your house I played in the yard it won't be the same to go back without you I'm afraid and know why, you won't be there my heart aches I can't escape where would I run too my friends say to let her go and cry I won't do it and I know why I'm afraid if I do her memeory will pass quicker but I know that I'm just being the fool I'm sorry gram I can't can't do it yet I can't let you go I know it's selfish I do but I love you.