I wish my teachers knew 8-30-21

I wish my teachers knew How hard it is to want to change How difficult it is to want to be a good student How painful it is to want to be normal, knowing you were made differently

I wish my teachers knew I am not crazy I am not lazy I am not faking I am not standing at the bus stop shaking because i want attention

I am just scared..

Scared of change Of homework Of failure Of disappointment Of rejection Of simply not being good enough...

I wish my teachers knew my mental health is not good, great, or normal

I wish they knew that i have trauma from a toxic ex i dated here From being jumpped and bullied horribly in middle school From being sexually assaulted and almost raped From all the while being abandoned by my own mother..who tore my family apart

But, i also wish they would know that despite all of that I am still trying my best Even though it my not look like it

I hope you understand I'm still just a kid And i am so SO scared of what's to come..