Staying, forever

you've lost so many people in your life loved and lost,

you've been through so much pain so to protect yourself you've tricked yourself into believing you don't care whether they leave or not that you're used to it

you think it numbs the pain you're wrong it only numbs you but you push and push and push because you're so scared of getting hurt again of them leaving

i love you with all of my heart with all of my being with all of my fucking soul

i. love. you.

and i am telling you even after all the pain and the tears and the lonely nights and the pushing and pushing and pushing

i am still staying,forever~