Every Day

I do my very best to just try to be the best person that I can possibly be. I wonder sometimes why I am here, why have to live this life that I didn't ask for. The life I hate having to always please everybody. Sometimes I enjoy the pleasure that people feel because I know how to kill their bad moods. But sometimes I can't even protect myself from the bad thoughts and that I can't keep myself away from these these horrible things horrible thoughts that make me not want to live in the present, in the now.