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i thanked you for helping me
i thanked you for staying with me
i thanked you for caring when nobody else did
but i never apologised for leaving you
Hey there, my dearest,
I have something on my mind
that's been spiraling through and through for some time now.
Hey there, sweet darling,
I feel this clenching in my chest;
it's more than a feeling - it's a physicality in its own, soaking in the guilt, the silence, the distortions.
It's hard to speak of it,
when all the attempts are being absorbed into this... void.
I tried to break through for quite a while,
but I guess the fright is enlarged in all its might by now.
But I was not born to bow down,
I'm not alive to be enslaved to the torture and the pain.
It's time I untie my tongue, time to free the mind.
Dearest,
I am sorry.
She said sorry way too often like it was a greeting
It was her favorite word cause she labeled herself as a disaster
She felt sorry for not being good enough for anyone
Cause no one ever told get that she was good enough
No one ever told her that she was much more than the earthquake she created in her head
She was just too sorry for breathing around people
I'm sorry for lying
I'm sorry for stealing
I'm sorry for the hurtful words
I'm sorry for the way I am
I'm sorry for the disrespecting words
I'm sorry for disrespecting people
I'm sorry for hurting you
I'm sorry for starting things
I'm sorry for getting in trouble
I'm sorry for trying to overdose
I'm sorry for breaking your heart
I'm sorry for everything
I'm sorry for my problems
I'm sorry for putting my hands on you
I'm sorry for telling stories
I'm sorry for my life style
I apologize too much
They say
I don't need to explain myself
They say
It's not your fault
They act this way
In truth
I know
But my mind
Doesn't think so
I was raised
To apologize for everything
There is no changing that
I just wish
You would understand
That bad habits are hard to break
As word's
Hurrytumble
I want to apologize
For everything I have ever done