gentlemen of fine discourse
like birds on a line
I am silent with my memory
of being stone
only the flesh
that embassy
from a world with no future
only such a simple window
could keep secret the very story
we dissect
school used to be a time of lead
I was sworn to answer present
the grammar of children is an old shop
found in a new place
I batten like a mad king
on remembered words.
My text should be: “The memory
of the wicked shall rot.”
After I go, I make sport
in imitating the dead,
grown fat on moonlight.
This morning was green and gilt.
Hands this morning were art.
This night, late to make up my accounts, I sigh for it.
I bled red years in the mine.
I went out of the present, going back and back.
In my absence, the clock sang to my wife.
This morning at home, looking over
the remains of our past:
where did I patch the house,
where did I paper?
Now an old
consumptive man,
cold, kept to my bed
and overtaking
the sea in sleep,
I wake to
the first night
I lay with my wife.
Long past:
cold as a god of business.
Past of which I eat,
almost cloyed.
Past in our own feast,
the lock altered.
A whole year goes
to the war with sand.
We remember one another
going to play house
and walk in the fields,
eat cheese-cake and enter
an hour’s ear.
Thirty years after the sudden death of someone I didn’t know terribly well, what remains? Not his name. Not quite his face, but something of his posture and physique. A strong impression of good-natured and thoughtful conviviality, based on possibly no more than half a dozen conversations, always on the periphery of punk shows. The shock and sadness of his death from a brain tumor. Someone who, on rare occasions when he pops into my head, still makes me smile, and shapes my memory of that whole period in my life. Good times. A good dude.
Wish I remembered his name.
fledgling cuckoo
flopping across the road
adoptive parents
nowhere to be found
poor little rain-crow
didn’t mean to be a parasite
A year into the pandemic, do I still remember how to kiss, or even to hug? Is it a muscle-memory thing, like riding a bicycle? I’ve forgotten whole languages, one lonely drink at a time. I barely remember what it’s like to be in a room full of strangers. Will we ever pretend that’s normal again?
last year’s pod
still holding on
to next year’s milkweed