Bremarie Gulfan

In this cold asylum They drug me in the bottom

In this death of patients bed I'm seeing my visions red

I know I may not be myself Didn't you know, the illusion is ourself?

I never wanted to see my face This is just a playing case

They never love to see me this But I love being the abyss.

Another December without you I hold my warm coffee Sitting outside my house Dreaming you came.

I miss your voice I miss your smile And that moments for a while

I miss your touch I miss your hugs And that moments for a while

I miss your kiss I miss your three words And that moments for a while

I miss how we walk under that street light I miss how we slowly dance And that moments for a while

I missed you Only you These aesthetic moments will never be for a while

So I watch that again Missing you will always be.

I said "Okay." Thought I wanted attentions, Your time, Your cuddles, Your hugs, Your calls, Your voices, Your texts, Your words, Your I love you.

I'm okay.

I was blind when you said you were busy I was blind when you said you loved me I was blind when you didn't pick me up I was blind when you didn't show up I was blind when you didn't answer my call I was blind when you hang up I was blind when you told me was my fault I was blind when you kissed me I was blind when you saud I have no right to be jealous I was blind when you said was only your friend I was blind when you told me I'm the only one I was blind when you said I was your future I was blind in everything, I'm blind now I see you someone walking down the aile. I'm blind because I just loved you so.

The winter air cold touches my skin The road with no crowded people The birds flying away

The red roses displayed And when I touch my finger bleed So I drop my blood in the water

I see the Christmas lights sparkle The branches with snows on My hair flaws when the wind breezes

I sit on a bench alone I started to write my love poems My silence...

I'm used to stay outside & wet Of the heavy rain,

Just like how you treated me...

I hate you, The words haunting me again I know i'd go back to you

I hate you, The scars that's still left I know i'd go back to you

I hate you, Pictures of sands i walk through I know i'd go back to you

I hate you, Whenever i sing, its like i can hear you I know i'd go back to you

I hate you, Im here at the tears of ocean deep I know i'd go back to you

I hate you, The scenes keeps repeating to dust I know i'd go back to you

I hate you, Songs only that speaks to me I know i'd go back to you

I hate you, Promises flying those clouds I know i'd go back to you

I hate you, I needed to loose you to love me I know i'd go back to you

I hate you, When im blind I know i'd go back to you.

IM FINE Im not fine. Please help me

IM JUST TIRED I cant take this anymore

I ALREADY ATE I starve myself

GO AWAY show me you care enough to stay

IM JUST COLD I dont want you to see my scars

IM BETTER, I PROMISE Ive never been this bad

IM OKAY I just want to die.