Brittany Allen

I want to see your face under the moonlight, I want to see you in the last rays of the sun, I want to see you first thing in the morning, When the rain pours and the snow falls. I want to see you in your happiest moments and your saddest hours. I want to see the way your face lights up when you talk about something you love, I want to see the way you look at me when I turn away, The face you make when you're concentrating or thinking.

I crave the simplicity of your raw human emotion and the bitter complexities of it. Let me feel how you embrace those you love, How you hold someone's hand or wipe away their tears. Let me see everything that you are and everything that you want to be.

He seemed to fit in anywhere you found him, He could melt into any environment and belong. the way he stood with such calm interest for something he loved so, so at ease in a place a boy like him shouldn't be I felt pulled toward the spiraling galaxy of his soul in that instant, so lost in thought you wanted to capture it. But then you realize, that perhaps, some small part of you doesn't want to capture it because you simply want to live in the moment. you can only admire from afar the wonder he was in himself, you wished to join him so your grey could touch the colour of his simplicity. he belongs and you don't so you can only sit and wait. hope, hope that maybe he will shroud you in himself and show you how to exist as he does.

I gave you what you needed to hear, Let's take it day by day. I didn't wish that upon us, no. I am the reckless The one who rebels passionately, I don't want day by day. Because I crave here and now That fleeting spark we both feel, I dare you catch it. Live it. This moment will never resurrect, Live this feeling Even just for a while, We might never have a moment such as this again.

the sea used to feel like a void keeping me away, I realise it's a journey I must take, one to get to you. they say distance is hard and time is a blessing, no. distance isn't hard it is a measure of strength, you need strength to cross that space.. for you I would, I'd run, climb anything... anything to be with you.

you give me a light, a hope. you give me an inspiration to write these words. the nights are long and the days are short with you but every second counts...

every smile and every word fills a void I didn't know I had, you are the first person I think of in the morning and always, always the last person I talk to.

The first time you said you loved me I felt the weight of the world ease, I knew you'd stay by my side and carry that weight with me forever. Forever is an impossible amount of time to measure but I want it with you.

I want the endless smiles and laughing, I want the hard days where we're impossibly homesick for one another, I want the arguments and the tears, I want it all because you are worth the laughter, the distance and the tears.

you are worth all of it and I would give anything for a day with you here, anything to feel your hand in mine and your arms around me... for the first time in a long time this feels real and irreplaceable.

I have a fear of falling, a fear for falling in love, a fear of falling from a height, a fear of flying, I have a fear for flying thousands of feet above the ground.

but let me tell you something.. I fell in love, It was fast and I didn't notice till I was hit with a wave, a wave, an urge to fall. an urge to fall further and harder, it was an unstoppable feeling,

I wanted to fly I wanted to travel where no man should, to break through the clouds and break through the distance. I wanted to face my biggest fears even if it meant I would only get a night with you; that alone would be enough, a few hours by your side and in your arms...

I had a fear but the fear of not seeing you and holding you or touching you was worse, half a world between your hand and mine. I do not know what you smell like or what you feel like but I don't care.

I didn't fall in love with that, I fell in love with your smile, I fell for the way you speak and how you laugh.. I thought my biggest fear was falling but it isn't, my biggest fear is losing you.

you've been stuck in my mind like a song, your name going round and round in circles, something else too... something just waiting to be said like it's the first time, I love you.

I'm impossibly in love with you, it's the sort of love where I can see a future by your side, not a childish naïve kind of future; no, one where we struggle for months just to move in together. one where we get married but it's simple, extravagance isn't our thing.

it wouldn't be a fairy tale it would be real, we'd stress over the messiness of pets but not give a care at the end of the day, that mess and the re scheduled dinner dates is what I want. I don't want a dream I want real life, I want you and me through the good and the bad. I want you and me forever, I know you think promises are stupid but I kept mine like a vow,

every day and every hour is worth it with you. this feels more real than anything else, you feel real. you feel like cold wind and dark nights but that's why I love you, cold winds are your favourite and the dark is my comfort. that is real, the cold and the dark and you, are real. this love is the realest thing of all.

I find myself smiling as I walk, lost in our future. Holding hands and smiling, seeing adventures in hidden places:

rain, sun, snow, through any storm you are mine. nothing can drown our parade, not now; not ever. you aren't a guest like the others before you, they only stayed until it was no longer convenient but you, you seem to be permanent always there.

I lose myself in daydreams of you and I, lazy mornings and busy afternoons, having fun and loving... when you love.. oh god you love with your whole being, you love with your heart, your mind and your soul; you bore your soul to me and I felt that love too. I understood how you gave everything for one person, the thing I didn't get was me. why me?

There are purer, kinder souls out there yet you chose me... you let me feel that unconditional love and my heart soared, it leapt for the starts but found itself in a galaxy. Every moment lived with you makes me think, Think of everything we could be and everything we are, Makes me think of our future. It reminds me of why I love you, Your smile, the way you have your hair, your voice when you're falling asleep. You aren't a daydream but a promise.