chelsea

Everytime I put the lights off I don't know how the darkness gets to me, it's just comes naturally like how the earth revolves around the sun. I think of the things that happened to me during the day, sometimes absolutely nothing happens, sometimes I'm dissed by my own people, Sometimes I'm treated like I'm non-exsistent And then There is this 10% of times where something actually good happens .

I didn't want to get over you But I needed to You were like a poison to my happiness Everytime you lied, everytime you walked away I used to think that if its you, then it's no fucking person But indeed I was wrong, it wasnt you but it was me I had to be myself I had to stop trying to get something I know I won't achieve I had to stop crying So I did

you tell her that she's beautiful She laughs and asks you how, When theres a crack on her front tooth, And all short nails which she bit from getting nervous , And when she closes her eyes and laughs how her eyebrows become wavy, In her slightly potatoish nose, And you wonder where she learnt that beauty lies upon your skin and outer appearance so that she thinks it covers, everything she holds within, But she let's her mirror and society estimate her worth, which breaks my heart She doesn't know how many life's she made better just by smiling By simply being on this earth

If one of the things you believe in Is that this world's an ugly place You must have never gone Outside at night And stared up into space You haven't felt the way the air changes In the minutes before it rains Or watched the world pass by below Out of the window plane You've never been awake so early That you see the moment the sun starts to rise And you've never laid with your back on the sky But maybe if you've done all this But still don't believe its not true It's because you can't see all the beauty That I see when I look at you

Inside she's a wreck When you see her she's perfectly fine Deep down her mind is a fucking mess When she's with you she seems happy When she's alone she's fragile like glass. The girl full of hopes and dreams She wants to escape her home where she cant sleep peacefully She wants to meet new people, explore the world go on fun road trips She wants to feel happy again And at midnight if you ask her "Are you okay" And she says I'm fine She won't be lying this time

Perhaps I don't deserve Nice things Cause I'm paying For the sins I don't Remember

every time I hold you I feel like I have everything right besides me I touch your hand and play with you're fingers you ask me "what are you doing " and I just smile and say "nothing " you smile back and then hold my hand . sometimes I do feel that you feel the same way when we are alone I think im falling in love with you

everyone is leaving right now so do you need an invitation too ? because I'm tired of sobbing for you hoping that you stay when I know that you will eventually leave me and go so leave when the times right