You were my sun, my moon.
You were my everything.
But now just a shadow
A memory to taunt me,
To drown and haunt me.
What were we?
What have we become?
I, my own star
I shine in my sky
But in the cold, dark
Vacuum of space
What are you now?
Do you have a light?
Do you have warmth?
Goodbye is said to leave;
is said when parents leave for work;
is said when children leave for school;
is said when you are done;
is a way to end a conversation;
is a way to end your life.
It is hard to get up in the morning
Without you
But I just get used to it
It is hard to peel my eyes when I blink
Knowing you're not here
But it is easy to pretend
You're here in this dead end
Where deep seas separate us
And our eyes blinded with dust
It is easy to pretend
We are one together
Which makes me feel better
And I know that this isn't the end
I started to get over it
It is just a slit
In my heart
I once was a large rock
But then you sculpted me
Only to find out that
You would just throw me away
Why don't you take care of me?
My body cried
because you don't look like them
I replied
Then do what ever you want to me
My body said as it cried in excruciating pain
Destroy me just to look 'normal'
I long for you
But you long for someone else
That person denies you
Because of longing for someone else
I was trying to help a flower grow
I did not care if it starts to snow
Come here I told the light
Pour I told the sky
Next thing you'll know
Is that the flower dies
I use wax seals
to seal the wound in my heart
I am not letting my blood leave me again
a lot of times
asked are you okay? I answer yes of course
But what is going on in my mind
when I say it
Sweet honey
Filled my lies
as I utter
I am fine it is okay
Sun bleeds red through my curtain
Demanding an answer.
Unwillingly I respond
To the cries of the bell.
Weariness draws my eyes
To the beginning of a dreary day.
I let you go -..
far before you think of it
whether or not you are by my side,
doesn't change anything
I just realized one thing between you and me
and, with just one difference
it covers the possibilities,-
before I left,
it was you who had left long ago ..
I thought I can trust myself
giving my heart to us
I was wrong,-
there's always good and bad
fun and sad,-
it is difficult for me to distinguish those things ..
because it makes no difference
it's so weird
that two weeks ago
I didn't hurt myself
because of you,
but today,
because of you,
I did.