everyone is here
even her stupid husband
they're all crying
I'm pretty sure it's fake
cause
I've never
Seen any of them
before
they have the balls
to glare at me like that
'Cause I'm just the
guy she cheated on with
but she loved me
she loved me
i set the flowers down
on the gravestone
I'm still a breath away
from that moment
I can still hear
her sweet voice
from when we danced
the night away
I'm still a breath away
from her screams
and the sound
of her bones
breaking
I've decided that hearts don't break
'cause they're not bones
they're muscles
and they rupture
and tear
I can't sleep anymore
The silence is suffocating me
And life moves on
Without me
Was Daisy that unimportant?
How are people still functioning?
Am I crazy?
They're acting as if nothing happened
And
Here
Am.
Just.
Broken. Like her bones.
months have come
and
gone
and
still, her eyes haunt my dreams
her words' breath still lingers against my ears
the ghost of her lips grazing my skin
its been months
and months
and still, my heart breaks at the memory of her
nightmares plague my thoughts day and night
I wish I was the one killed instead of her
I wish she didn't stop breathing
How unfair is it
That I still feel the air and breathe it
And Daisy's body has long been cold as ice
Buried in the unforgiving ground
It's unfair
That I have the guts to walk
when she never will again
i have the record playing
And I'm covering my ears
Trying to shut out the thoughts
inside my head
they just whirl and whirl around
like the water in a toilet bowl
drowning out the world
I can't hear the music
And I can't remember why I put it on
Why must there be happiness
When my world just died?
My Daisy, my Daisy,
is gone
For good.
the tumbling of the washer
Is the only sound I can focus on
I'm watching my clothes spin
and spin and spin
My servants all watched me
I can feel their empty stares
But I don't care
I just need a distraction
From the chasm inside of me
tick. tock.
tick.
tock.
The pendulum swings back and forth
on a day that would never end
If I close my eyes
I could still pretend that she's here
right beside me
Laughing, breathing
but as soon as I open them again
The pain of her death
becomes my reality
and
My
Eternity.
On top of a mountain
Looking down on Green Valley,
The desert sun shines,
The the prairie dogs run wild.
Its hot and its dry,
And though you left us behind,
I still feel you with me
Looking down on Green Valley.
Standing on a balcony,
Looking down on Tuscon's city lights,
The desert moon shines,
The stars glow like wild fire.
Theres a beautiful night sky,
And though you left us behind,
I still feel you with me,
Standing on that balcony.
Roses are red,
sometimes im thinking,
about people what think I'm lying,
about being hurt,
because they see me,
laughing.
But actually,
I laugh to keep,
myself from crying
The more I stay alone the less I feel lonely
It's sad how...
We lose the people we treasure most.
But then,
Even Roses lose petals.