I show you my poems, not for praise, but help.
These verses are pleas on paper.
You say 'beautiful',
I scream mercy.
Is it not clear enough?
Are my sufferings my fault?
I guess now,
if you decide to help after reading this,
you'll have to go to my grave.
It's too quiet here.
Come closer.
You can't hear me cry.
Come closer,
you can't see my dreams all die
from where you're standing on your own.
It's too quiet here.
you promised-
then, weeks later, when i fell
you smiled maliciously and said "broken promises are the best kind"
'broken hearts hurt the worst'
its too quiet here.
i feel so cold-
relief exists though.
when i am cut.
crippled anger,
my loss wouldn't be unique
why would anyone care?
not even i do
i'm nothing special
i'm everything that isn't
i'm just here
and there
How do I stop the pain?
Do I take a knife and slit my throat
Do I cut my self-till the pain dulls away?
How about hanging myself on my celling fan
Or shooting all my bullies
Oh wait ive got the answer
I’ll just pop another pill
Drown myself in the bathtub
Do I jump of the nearest bridge?
Or throw myself in front of a speeding car
NO THOSE ARE NOT THE ANSWERS
I’ll get help that’s what I’ll do
I’ll tell some no good therapist
My sorry ass story
How I hate my life
How nobody truly understands me
Eyes closed breathing deeply
This is it i tell myself
I open my mouth to speak
These are the words that come out
Hand in hand we walk together
The stars light the night
Imagine us together again
Eating under the big oak tree
Laughing at my not so funny jokes
Remember the time we stole your moms keys
And took a ride to the park
Just so we could get on the swings
Or the time i lost my favorite t-shirt
You bought me a new one so i would have to
When you broke up with your girlfriend
I was there to comfort you
There I go again
Staring at the endless black sky,
Hoping my tears will go away.
The chill from the open window
Enters inside,
Reminding me of
The far away.
Oh how I wish
I could be there,
Far away from where I am.
The rain is slowly pouring,
Peeking inside from the
Small gap between the windows.
It caresses my face,
Almost asking for help.
I look at the cars
Grandfather, Grandfather
Where are you?
Come to me
Tell stories to me,
Where are you lost?
Come to me
Return to me,
Come, come to me.
I don't want
To be star forever,
Come, come to me.
Grandfather, Grandfather
Are you that blue star or that red one?
Where are you lost again?
Come, return to me.
Where are you gone?
The problem is I may be good enough but I don't feel like I am,
I may be pretty but what's the point if I don't feel it?
I may be the nicest around but how do I see it?
I hear the bad things you say but the good go through me
The problem here is,
I don't see my self worth.
Here lies someone who we once loved dearly.
She was too kind and bubbly for us to handle
She gave light to the world and people would dim it.
They hated it,
Despised her cheeriness.
They wondered how she did it,
Perhaps it was all an act.
But as she grew older she grew colder
The people that once despised her missed her,
Said she was now too closed off and stale.
And how she answered to that was with a cold glare,
It said more than she bothered to voice.
So.. r.i.p to the old me,
'cause she was too kind and naive,
Trying to give others what was hers
And in return all she got was a broken soul and a lost mind.
With tears In her eyes she smiled in the mirror
You're a strong one, you fell but got up
Although right now
I don't know how much longer you can keep it up
And her smile dies down while she holds the blade to her wrist
There are days where I feel so much,
My heart pounds, my eyes sweat, my knees shake and my memories jog.
They all go back to you,
The feelings double,
I wish I didn't pick rocks over you,
I wish my feelings were stable that day,
I didn't mean to hurt you.
I see you watch her now,
It used to be me but once again it's her.
Shes noticed too but tells me she doesn't want you,
I know your pure heart,
If she ever gets to know you-
I'll be the supportive friend,
We were never meant to be,
Be happy, that's your plan.
Fix her heart, I'll fix my own.
Don't worry about me,
I'll always have a smile on my face, even when I'm too tired.
Don't look me in the eye though or else I might cry.