Abbie's "Choking" is about the struggle to write about a failed relationship when the pain is still too raw. The speaker says that whenever they try to put "us" into a poem, their fingers "stutter," as if the hand itself can't get the words out. The endings, which should feel like a release or a conclusion, come out broken, like hiccups.
In the second part, the speaker blames the heart for taking over: it "chokes" the hand, so the writing never flows. The last line is blunt and a little raw. "I freaking can't swallow our breakups" suggests that the breakups are something the speaker can't accept or digest, much like food stuck in the throat. The casual word "freaking" gives the line a spoken, frustrated tone. Overall, the mood is tense and unresolved, with a sense of someone who wants closure through writing but can't reach it yet. The short, jerky rhythm echoes the choking the title describes.