«Deep deep down…» — Summary

Deep deep down, Further than the reach of natural will, Beyond the control of firm determination, Exceeding the range of self respect, Stretched beyond the stubborn reins of emotional directives Sunk at the bottom of a sea that flows from the bowels of my exceedingly pained heart, A castle-like empire of unexplainable emotions, Characterized by foolish decisions, Guarded heavily by confusing reactions, Built on a history of initially denied infatuations And there, right at the top of it all, Upon the throne of many jumbled feelings, She so steadfastly and confidently is seated, Resplendent in the glorious beauty beheld only by the blindness that has scaled my mind, In her hand, a baton to conduct the melodies of my thoughts The queen of my soul, In whose eyes my image was once accompanied by great admiration, To whom I am subconsciously enslaved, A priceless treasure still not worth fighting for, Oh! How I hold on to the outworn chord that is left of our connection But, if I let her go, What, then shall become of me? Who, then shall I turn to? How, then shall I survive? For what course shall I live? If I let her go, Shall I not be left weak and empty, Should the throne upon which she sat be left unoccupied and stone cold, At what pace or to what rhythm shall the beat of my heart be played, Or shall the resulting loneliness and brokenness be soothed by mere words? IF, I LET HER GO…

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Abugor Socrates describes a love that has sunk far below reason. The speaker imagines a castle at the bottom of a sea of pain, built from confusing feelings and foolish choices, with the woman he loves seated on its throne. She is beautiful, but the speaker admits that only his own blindness lets him see her that way. She once looked at him with admiration, and that is gone now. He calls her a treasure "still not worth fighting for," yet he can't stop holding on to the "outworn chord" that remains between them.

The second half turns into a run of anxious questions. What will become of him, who will he turn to, why would he go on living? The empty throne, stone cold, stands for the hole she would leave. The mood is heavy and desperate, a mix of longing, self-reproach and fear. The shouted last line, "IF, I LET HER GO…", trails off unanswered, leaving him stuck.

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