Need And Want

I need to let go I need to be free But for some reason I can't I can't let you go I can't set myself free I need to be alone The thoughts of you trouble me I love you and I don't know why In all honesty your thoughts make me cry I loved you You where mine Now I have suicidal thoughts all the time "I love you Andrew" Is all I can think Why can't you love me too? Can I just say goodbye? Really all I want to do is die

Me My life Not you and yours You're my mother Not my lord You should tell me to brush my teeth Not you hate me You should tell me to take out the garbage Not I'm a piece of shit Why mom? Do you hate me so? You kicked me out You left me with no home So where do I go? This house is not a home This life is not living This breath is not breathing All I want is for you to love me Is that so much to ask?

I had a friend His name was Jaylen Now he's gone Does no one see How much it hurts "You need to get over it" I need to have time His death was hard I love him a lot He was my friend And you're not