The Sonnets XXVI

I wake up back aching from soft bed Pat gone to class Ron to work (I never heard a sound) its my birthday. I put on birthday pants birthday shirt go to ADAM'S buy a pepsi for breakfast come home drink it take a pill I'm high. I do three Greek lessons to make up for cutting class. I read birthday book (from Joe) on Juan Gris real name Jose Victoriano Gonzales stop in the middle read all my poems gloat a little over new ballad quickly skip old sonnets imitations of Shakespeare. Back to books. I read poems by Auden Spenser Pound Stevens and Frank O Hara. I hate books. I wonder if Jan or Helen or Babe ever think about me. I wonder if Dave Bearden still dislikes me. I wonder if people talk about me secretly. I wonder if I'm too old. I wonder if I'm fooling myself about pills. I wonder what's in the icebox. I wonder Ron or Pat bought any toilet paper this morning.