He Saw Himself in Numbers — Summary

He saw himself in numbers, statistics, facts, logic. He saw himself in numbers that toyed with his mind.

The IQ emblazoned across his forehead didn’t tell of the eloquent nature of his thoughts.

The vocabulary count written on his lips didn’t mention the convivial nature of his lay.

The measures of his shoulders, muscles, waist circumfrence, were ignorant of his frame’s skinny beauty.

The anxious number written across his weathered worry-finger said nothing of the friends and family he worried for.

He saw himself in numbers. That is true, and only logical; numbers cannot lie but they are not the only logical explanation.

Or perhaps, simple logic is not the only explanation, For I saw him, in

the creases round his eyes that showed how many times he smiled and how he stared at the sun even though it hurt.

I saw him in the geraniums by my house because he forgot to buy me flowers once so he picked them, all special, and my mum was so mad.

I saw him as his hair, floppy, messy, black, a crow’s nest that was surprisingly soft.

I’d hoped that he’d forget the numbers. I really, truly did. But they subsumed him into facts, The figures, the abyss.

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Charles Noreaster's poem is about a man who sees himself only as a set of measurements: IQ, vocabulary count, body size, even his anxiety. The speaker, who clearly loves him, argues that none of these figures capture who he really is. The numbers miss his eloquent thoughts, his warm way of talking, and his "skinny beauty."

The second half turns from statistics to small, tender memories. The speaker sees him in the creases around his eyes from smiling, in the geraniums he picked after forgetting flowers (much to her mum's annoyance), and in his soft, messy black hair. These details feel warm and a little funny, which makes the contrast with the cold numbers stronger.

The ending is sadder. The speaker admits she hoped he would forget the numbers, but they swallowed him into "facts" and "the abyss." The mood moves from affectionate defiance to quiet grief, as if love and memory weren't quite enough to pull him back.

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