impending change

a kind of nervousness, an impending change to doom or to flourish? a change in any case an uneasiness, an excitement; nerves in any case about to burst, about to fall, impending thirst, precariously balancing all too much coffee? no, none at all a heartsickness, a longing; is it here or is it far? an embarrassment, a harassment; is it me or is it them? this feeling wobbling like a wave, reminiscent of what saudade gave the feeling of soaring