Monsoon Depression — Summary

Balachandran VTrivandrum 02.06.2011Sad

In the night, listening to the sounds Of rain drumming on the tin roof, To the crashing cymbals Of dried branches of the Mango tree falling, To the shattering boom of coconut Dropping like a cannon ball - And the wail of the wind And the croak of the frogs – The patter of rain on the cemented courtyard And to the sour, sullen silences of the night -

Looking, mind empty of thoughts, looking At the seeping water dripping Through the cracked tiles on the roof And running down the wall - At the puddle growing, moving Slowly like a serpent across the floor -

Looking at Sancho and Sally sleeping Close together, on the torn piece of an old quilt – A friend’s wedding gift many years ago…

Listening, looking, thinking about nothing In particular - My parents, no more now Come with the chilling winds that blow.

I imagine myself dead I see the faces of grief Of family, friends The crowd that stand around Some silent, some socializing Some looking important, giving directions The lamps, the burning incense - My dogs - inexpressible would be their grief, Quite likely shut in my room, away from people.

The pain of death, I rue, is not of the departed; What hurts is not the pain Of having to leave, But the pain you leave, Leaving sorrow, only sorrow, to the deprived.

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On a stormy night, the speaker sits awake and takes in everything around him: rain on the tin roof, branches cracking, a coconut thudding down like a cannonball, frogs, wind. Water leaks through the tiles and a puddle creeps across the floor "like a serpent." His mind goes quiet, and in that stillness he watches his two dogs, Sancho and Sally, sleeping on an old quilt. The memory of his parents, who are gone, seems to arrive with the cold wind.

From there the poem turns inward. He pictures his own death: the mourners, the lamps and incense, people chatting or trying to look important. What he worries about most is his dogs, probably shut away in a room while others gather. The ending is the poem's quiet point. Dying itself doesn't trouble him as much as the sorrow he would leave behind for those who loved him. The mood is gloomy and reflective, but tender rather than frightened.

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