Through the window — Summary

Balachandran VTrivandrum 21.03.2009Sad

No longer have I settled down on my seat The wailing would ensue. Some would be urgent, short and rapid Some long-drawn, slow, as if it knows It wouldn’t make any difference anymore.

In the beginning, I used to get up And look out through the window. The white vehicles with the mirror image Of AMBULANCE would flash past Offering me glimpses Of faces dark with misery.

There were then other kinds; Cars, with lights blazing, horn blaring Squeezing out, weaving through the oncoming rush. Three-wheeled autorickshaws offered the best view. There would invariably be one, head leaning on To another’s shoulder Blood-spattered dress, blood-streaked face Closed eyes – I was fascinated by the expression Of the others – vacant, sometimes anxious, Of flickering fear, of untold sorrow and submission to fate.

I have seen them too, the ambulances with a wreath or two Stuck in the front, solemn, slow – Everything has to come to a pass.

In the beginning, I used to sit back With a heavy heart, and then Reminded of my own mortality Would strain my ears For that wailing at my doors.

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The speaker sits indoors, hearing ambulance sirens pass again and again. At first he would rush to the window and watch: ambulances carrying faces "dark with misery," then cars racing with horns blaring, and autorickshaws where an injured, blood-streaked person slumps against a companion. He is struck most by the onlookers' expressions, a mix of vacancy, fear, and quiet acceptance of fate.

Over time, the scene changes for him. He no longer settles in his seat to wait for the wailing, and he no longer looks out. Even the sirens seem to sound differently, some urgent, some slow, as if they know nothing can help. The poem ends on its most unsettling turn: the speaker, once moved by others' suffering, now sits with a heavy heart and listens for the sound that might come for him. The mood is sombre and quietly fearful, with a weary sense of how familiar death has become.

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