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I hadn't thought of you in weeks , maybe days. . . Sometimes I forget , that I make myself forget about you Until one day , you changed . but everything stayed the same .

she brought you up today . I don't think they knew I was keeping a tally in my head . counting how many days it would take to forget you . or how long it would take for the ache in my heart to go away

so here I am , tears running down my face , reminding myself you don't love me, & what she said can't be true because I thought I had just forgot about you .

I'm telling myself . those voices in my head . that bad men dont change but everything in my heart begs for you to stay .

but I remind myself I am not yours you are not mine and you dont want to be it was just a fairytale that I made up in my mind .