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Dave Bonta
An oyster’s
answer to a tear—
I choose one for
my wife and one,
like so much in
my mind, to keep
to myself.
A night my observations
outrun themselves
like arguments against science
or a Friday street,
crying a seditious tear.
being sad doesn't mean I will cry,
and
being happy doesn't mean I will smile,
because having a gun doesn't mean I'll shoot.
My friend just told me he's suicidal-
Not again,
I think as I hold in my tears.
Losing someone is hard,
But losing someone when you know you could have helped
Is like having someone rip out your heart.
He thinks not being alright is bad-
If that's true, I'm living the worst life anyone's ever had.
Of all my friends,
Only two are really okay.
There's the one I tell everything,
And the one I'm still trying to make.
They both know I'm not at my best,
But they still treat me like someone who's fine.
I think it's cause they know being hurt is fine,
And that it's okay not to be okay.
They say she's strong
But they don't know
She walks around on a daily bases
On the verge of tears
You don't have a clue
That she's not fine.
They don't want to cry,
they want it to stop.
They don't want to cut,
they want it to stop.
so why haven't they stopped it?
they don't want to die,
they just want it to stop.
And when you,
Sink to your knees,
I'll stand you back up.
And when you,
Drown in your tears,
I'll stand you back up.
And when you,
Break all your bones,
I'll heal you.
And when you,
Lose all your hope,
I'll heal you.
And when you,
Cry out for me,
I'll be there.
Even when you,
Torture,
Madness.
Crazy,
Sadness.
Mind,
Wandering,
Thoughts,
Prolonging.
Contemplating,
Life.
Regretting,
Lies.
Holding,
Secrets.
Holding back,
Tears.
A smile,
Easy to fake,
Bringing pain,
For others gain.
A tear,
Built over years,
Full of hurt,
And worldly fears.
A fight,
Just for show,
To make others know,
Of your might.
A death,
A reason to dress,
Acting a mess,
Not really affected.
A shadow,
Embracing,
Mistakes.
A breeze,
Glancing,
A graze.
A drop,
Rivers,
Of tears.
A heart,
Memories,
Fears.
Just words,
Paper,
Threats.
Quiet,
I hadn't thought of you in weeks ,
maybe days. . .
Sometimes I forget , that I make myself forget about you
Until one day , you changed .
but everything stayed the same .
she brought you up today .
I don't think they knew
I was keeping a tally in my head .
counting how many days it would take to forget you .
or how long it would take for the ache in my heart to go away
so here I am ,
tears running down my face ,
reminding myself
you don't love me,
& what she said can't be true
because I thought I had just forgot about you .
As I lay drowning in a pool of your lies
I whispered our love story to the lady of the waters
She listened to my every word, dried my broken tears
I became to love her softness and gentle womanhood
I pledged to her my honor and respect above all others
To treat her as my family
A sister, aunt and Mother