The speaker is trying to move on from someone who keeps showing up in their thoughts. Each time they begin a new chapter of life, the memory of this person follows, and the speaker insists they shouldn't be there. The poem suggests that the two of them together would only bring "strife," so letting go seems like the healthier choice, even if it hurts.
What makes the poem feel honest is its uncertainty. The speaker admits to needing "someone to speak to," which hints at loneliness and a heart that hasn't healed. In the last stanza the confidence slips: "at least i'll try" is a promise made with doubt. The line about avoiding "my lie" is open to interpretation. It may mean the speaker has been pretending not to care, or telling themselves they're over it.
The mood is quiet, wistful and a little tense. Short lines and simple words make it sound like a private thought, a person talking themselves into moving forward.