Therapy — Poem analysis

Dave BontaContemplative

I have no mouth but I must scream, says the wind.

My tongue knows its own taste: the half- frozen stream.

You draw me & I’ll draw you, I tell my childhood self.

We lean like ladders against the clouds. With one listening foot I feel for the next rung down.

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A scream with no mouth behind it is the poem's first and strangest image. Dave Bonta's "Therapy" hands its opening lines to the wind, which announces, "I have no mouth but / I must scream." The paradox sounds familiar, and the line seems to echo the title of Harlan Ellison's story "I Have No Mouth, and I Must Scream", though the poem never says so. The line break matters here. Because "but" hangs at the end of the line, we briefly expect the wind to name some other way of speaking. Instead the scream simply arrives, with no mouth to carry it.

That opening sets up the poem's central idea: therapy as the struggle to give pain a voice when no voice seems available, and the discovery that the voice may come from a conversation with one's younger self. The poem has four short stanzas, and each one moves the speaker a little further from the wind's helpless cry toward something quieter and more physical.

The second stanza brings the body in. The wind has no mouth, but the speaker does have a tongue, and it "knows its / own taste: the half- / frozen stream." The hyphen is split across two lines, so the word "half-frozen" is itself caught mid-thought, which suits the image. Speech here is neither locked in ice nor fully flowing. The poem's one true rhyme joins the stanzas: "scream" and "stream" differ by a single consonant sound. That near-identity suggests the scream and the stream are the same pressure in different states, and that the cry might thaw into something that can move.

In the third stanza the voice turns from monologue to bargain: "You draw me & I'll / draw you, I tell / my childhood self." The ampersand is quick and informal, and the tone is almost that of a playground pact, as if the adult must speak the child's language to be heard. "Draw" works in two ways. It can mean making pictures, which fits the idea of art-based therapy, and it can mean pulling something out, the way one draws water. Given the stream in the previous stanza, the second sense feels deliberate, though that is an inference. Either way, the exchange is reciprocal. Neither self is only the helper or only the patient.

The final stanza is the longest, as if the poem has finally been given room to breathe. "We lean like ladders / against the clouds" is a lovely impossibility, since ladders need something solid to rest on and clouds cannot hold them. The "we" may suggest two figures, adult and child, supporting each other where nothing else will. Then the rhythm lengthens and slows: "With one listening foot I feel / for the next rung down." The phrase "listening foot" swaps one sense for another. After the mouthless wind, the speaker's most important faculty is not speaking but attention, and the foot becomes an ear, testing the dark for what is there.

The direction matters too. Ladders usually promise ascent, and we expect the poem to climb toward relief. Instead the speaker goes "down," which fits the idea of descending toward childhood and the buried material of the self. The verb "feel for" admits that nothing is certain. There is no rung visible, only a cautious reaching.

What makes "Therapy" worth reading is how much it does without the vocabulary of therapy. There is no counsellor, no diagnosis and no breakthrough, only wind, water, a pact and a ladder. The poem is compact, with most lines holding just a handful of syllables, yet its movement is clear: from scream to taste, from taste to dialogue, from dialogue to listening. Its ending offers steadiness rather than cure. Healing, the poem suggests, is less a matter of finally finding a mouth than of learning to listen, one careful step at a time, to the part of yourself that has been waiting below.

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