Two-minded — Summary

Dave BontaContemplative

I believe one thing in my poems & another in my prose, like a window that opens onto different yards depending on the time of day or the presence of other open windows, like a road that leads sometimes into town & sometimes deeper into the forest, where this morning the raindrops glistened on every bare twig, a ruffed grouse throbbed in the leftover corners of night like a drum of war, & I pulled a long white hair through the eyes of my left boot in lieu of a bootlace to keep its stealthy tongue from giving me away, scout as I am for an invading army of distractions, believing one thing in the morning & another in the flat afternoon when objects lose their luster & fall back into the vacuum of anywhere-but-here.

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The speaker admits to being of two minds: what he believes in his poems differs from what he believes in his prose. He compares this to a window that shows different yards depending on the hour, or a road that sometimes goes to town and sometimes into the woods. Then the poem becomes a walk. It is morning, the rain is glittering on bare twigs, and a grouse thumps in the dark like a war drum. The speaker, oddly, laces his boot with a long white hair, so the loose tongue won't "give him away." He sees himself as a scout, watching for an army of distractions.

The mood is alert and a little playful, even secretive. Morning feels vivid and full of belief. By the flat afternoon, things lose their shine and drift into "anywhere-but-here." The poem suggests that certainty depends on attention, and attention fades with the light.

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