Circus Reject — Poem analysis

Dave BontaCheerful

What can you do, he asks. I can recite pi, I tell him, to one thousand places. Blindfold me — I can find & identify flying objects better than a bat. I don’t merely eat fire; I excrete it. I can go for years without sleep. But he only wants to know how much I drink — as if I ran away from my life & came all this way just to pound stakes & shovel elephant dung like some lousy roustabout. Your loss, I say to his back, & shuffle back to the bus stop in my big clown shoes, blisters already rising on my tentacles.

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A job interview is about the most ordinary scene imaginable, and Dave Bonta drops it into one of the strangest workplaces he could pick. In "Circus Reject," a would-be performer lists their qualifications, gets asked about drinking, and is dismissed. The comedy is quick, but it carries a sharper idea: the people who decide what we're worth often look straight past what we are and see only the type they expected.

The speaker's résumé is magnificent and ridiculous at once. Reciting pi "to one thousand places" is a feat of pure mind. Being blindfolded and still able to "find / & identify flying objects / better than a bat" is a feat of the senses. The phrase "identify flying objects" also quietly flips the familiar "unidentified flying objects," as if the speaker were a one-person solution to the mystery. Then comes the best joke: "I don't / merely eat fire; I excrete it." The line break after "I don't" holds the sentence for a beat before the boast turns bodily and a little gross. That is the poem's method in miniature: a grand claim, then an earthy kick.

The hinge is the small word "But." After it, the interview collapses: "he only wants to know / how much I drink." Everything before was performance, and everything after is deflation. The interviewer's assumption, that the speaker "ran away from my life / & came all this way just / to pound stakes & shovel / elephant dung," arrives in one long, unbroken run of lines. The enjambment makes the speaker's indignation seem to build as they talk. The language also gets heavier. The earlier boasts were airy and abstract, but now the sounds thud: "pound stakes," "shovel," "dung," "lousy roustabout." The circus, supposedly the home of wonder, is revealed to be a workplace with the usual low-paid labor and the usual lazy stereotypes about the people who do it.

Formally, the poem is free verse with no rhyme and no fixed meter. Most lines run six to eight syllables, and the rhythm is that of someone telling a story aloud. The speaker's own words are not set off in quotation marks, and the interviewer's question is only reported ("he asks," "he only wants to know"), so the voice stays entirely with the speaker. The ampersands add to the casual, slightly hurried feel, like a note scribbled rather than a speech prepared. The interviewer never gets a character, only a question and a back, which is how it feels to be processed rather than seen.

The ending is where the poem turns from funny to touching. "Your loss, / I say to his back" is a bold retort, but it's delivered to someone who has already walked away, so the bravado has no audience. The verb "shuffle" shrinks the exit further, and it ends not at a caravan or a ring but at a "bus stop." The speaker is still wearing "big clown shoes," dressed for a job they didn't get, which is comic and sad at once.

Then the last line changes everything: "blisters / already rising on my tentacles." Until now we could read the speaker as a human exaggerating, a braggart with an inflated CV. The tentacles suggest the claims may be literally true and that this is a genuinely uncanny creature. If so, "Your loss" is no empty boast. The interviewer, absorbed in his stereotype of the drifter and drinker, missed the one thing that might have made the act. The word "already" adds a last touch of pathos, since the walk has barely begun and the pain has too. The speaker's body is extraordinary, but it suffers the most ordinary hurt of any job-seeker on foot. A reader could also take the tentacles as the poem winking at its own absurdity, and the text supports both readings.

What makes the poem worth reading is how much it does in twenty short lines. It is funny enough to enjoy purely as a surreal sketch, but it also speaks to anyone whose real abilities don't fit the box on the form. It treats its misfit with affection instead of mockery, and it lets the reader see the marvel the interviewer cannot.

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