Water bearish — Poem analysis

Dave BontaInspired

I have seen the sea which I have much desired

I have made myself commissioner of nothing

I resolve not to fear a bear spirit

poor and mean bearing me up

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Four couplets, a few words each, and yet the poem travels from longing to renunciation to a strange kind of rescue. It opens with something achieved: "I have seen the sea / which I have much desired." The grammar is slightly old-fashioned. "Which" stands in for "that," and "much desired" replaces a plainer "wanted." The result sounds like a pilgrim's report. The sound helps, too. "Seen" and "sea" share one long vowel, so the line seems to linger on the sight itself. What stands out is the lack of triumph. Desire has been satisfied, and the speaker moves on at once.

The next couplet is the most pointed: "I have made myself / commissioner of nothing." "Commissioner" belongs to boards, offices and official letterheads, and attaching it to "nothing" produces a job with no jurisdiction. The line can be read as self-mockery, or as a deliberate giving up of status and control. It might even be a kind of freedom, since someone in charge of nothing answers for nothing. The verb matters here. The speaker has "made myself" this, so the emptiness is chosen, not suffered. The repeated "I have" that begins both opening couplets sets up a rhythm of accomplishments (seeing, making), and the poem then breaks that pattern.

The break comes with "I resolve not to fear / a bear spirit." The tense shifts from the perfect to the present, from what has been done to what is being decided. "Resolve" is a word of will, yet what is willed is a refusal, a decision not to be afraid. The poem has no rhyme scheme, but "fear" and "bear" sit in neighbouring lines and echo each other through their shared "-ear" sound. The dread and the thing dreaded are bound together by sound before the sense catches up.

The final couplet is where the poem turns: "poor and mean / bearing me up." Its grammar is left open. The phrase "poor and mean" could describe the bear spirit, or the speaker, or both at once. "Mean" has an older meaning of lowly and humble alongside the modern one of unkind or stingy, so the spirit may be shabby, ungenerous, or simply modest. Then comes "bearing," and "bear" changes from noun to verb. The creature to be feared becomes the one that carries, supports and endures. The final word, "up," lifts the whole poem on its last syllable. The fear is converted into support within a single line break.

The title adds a further layer. "Bearish" is not "bear" but a suggestion of one, a mood or a leaning. It also carries the financial sense of pessimism, which suits a poem full of the vocabulary of poverty and loss: "nothing," "poor," "mean." "Water bear" is also a familiar nickname for the tardigrade, a microscopic animal known for being remarkably hard to destroy. That link is an inference, but it fits, because a tiny, humble creature that endures is close to what the poem imagines. Water also connects the title to the sea in the first line, so the poem's opening and closing images share a common element.

The shape of the poem reinforces all of this. Counting syllables, the lines run roughly five, six, five, seven, six, four, three, four. After the long phrase "commissioner of nothing," the lines contract, and the last couplet is the barest of all, as though the speaker has been stripped of titles. There is no punctuation and no capital letter apart from "I," so the sentences rely entirely on the line breaks to find their meaning.

What makes the poem significant is how much it gets from so little. A single word, "bear," carries a whole small narrative: something frightening, a decision to face it, and the discovery that it can hold you up. The poem suggests that giving up importance may be the condition for being carried, and that what we fear may turn out to be what supports us. It does this without explaining itself, and that restraint is what makes it linger.

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