Delusional — Summary

Dave BontaCheerful

Take these wings. I have no business in the sky. From now on I shall confine myself to smaller sections of an arc, go back to the bitter milk I was weaned on at the silk-parachute plant. None of this erratic dancing about on a trajectory that’s impossible to plot. That’s not how dragon- flies do it, much less wrens, airplanes or hummingbirds. My piloting mechanism must have a fatal flaw, & I lack the strength to climb much higher than the hills. I have no business flying, & aim to stop— as soon as I can figure out how to get back in that mummy sack, the chrysalis. Whatever made me dream up some place called Mexico?

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The speaker sounds like a butterfly, though the poem never says so outright. The clues are the "silk-parachute plant" (a milkweed, judging by the "bitter milk"), the chrysalis, and the final mention of Mexico, where monarchs are known to migrate. Having tried to fly, the speaker decides it was all a mistake. Its path is erratic, unlike a dragonfly's or a hummingbird's, and it feels too weak to climb above the hills. So it wants to quit and crawl back into the chrysalis.

The tone is self-mocking and a little rueful. The speaker lists its flaws with a shrug, as if packing up a failed project. But the closing question, "Whatever made me dream up / some place called Mexico?", gives the game away. The dream is still there, and the speaker is embarrassed by how big it is. The mood is a mix of doubt, humor, and stubborn longing, something anyone who has set an impossible goal might recognize.

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