(e.j.p) — Summary

my arms feel wrong my hands are moving rapidly over your body, dying to memorise every bump, every scar the one running across your left shoulder blade after you fell from that tree when you were a kid the one behind your knee from when you slipped on that bench and ripped your pants the one over your eyebrow from when you and your friend fought infront of that supermarket the ones on your wrists that you did on your own the many small burn marks your dad left scattered across your body from his cigarettes memorising them all, good and bad it feels like a goodbye, and it was.

Show the whole poemHide the poem

Learn Poems app

Try the Learn Poems app

Everything from the website trainer, and more: new exercises, voice recording and sharing, reminders, quick review.

The speaker is touching a person's body for what turns out to be the last time, and trying to memorise it by hand. The opening line, "my arms feel wrong," hints at the ache of being close to someone you are about to lose. From there the poem moves through the scars one by one: a fall from a tree, a slip on a bench, a fight outside a supermarket. Most are ordinary childhood marks, the kind that come with a story.

Then the list darkens. There are scars the person made themselves, and burn marks from their father's cigarettes. The speaker doesn't flinch or comment. They take in "good and bad" together, which shows how completely they love this person, wounds included.

The mood is tender but heavy with grief. The final line, "it feels like a goodbye, and it was," shifts into past tense, so we realise the speaker is looking back, still holding onto those memories.

Read also

More by EmiliaPettersson

All poems
AnxiousEmiliaPettersson

(e.j.p)

How can you be the highlight of my dreams and the monster under my bed.
SadEmiliaPettersson

(e.j.p)

There you are, laughing from the bottom of your lungs And here I am, barely breathing.
InspiredEmiliaPettersson

(e.j.p)

I need to be me. I need to be sad without your tears drowning my head. I need to be happy without your nails clawing at every inch of my body. But most of all,