(e.j.p)

hey sis, I know my eyes are red and i'm smelling of cigaretts and cheap vodka I know you'd probably be better off without me, so one day i'm leaving. but for tonight, hold me like we used to and take my pain away. I use your love to feel better about myself when I know one day i'll be leaving and tearing you apart. this is not fair on you, I know, but you deserve someone who picks you off of the ground instead of someone who can't even open their eyes. But for now, hold me?