Bullshit — Poem analysis

You feed me All your bullshit "I love you" "I won't leave"

And I believe it Every time.

It's sickening The way you can pull me back Into your arms After every fight.

It's like I crave For you to drop me And then come around And pick me back up.

Even if you did start trying The night would always end With me in a pillow Face down crying.

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A swear word as a title announces that nobody is going to be polite here. "Bullshit" gives us a speaker who has already judged the person she or he addresses, yet the poem is not a victory over that person. It describes a cycle of fight, abandonment and reconciliation, and it admits that understanding the cycle does nothing to break it. The central idea is the gap between knowing and acting. The speaker can name the promises as lies in the opening stanza and still, two lines later, confess: "And I believe it / Every time."

The form suits that confession. The poem is free verse in short, plain lines, often only three or four words long, and it sounds like someone talking rather than writing. Most of its five stanzas have four lines, but the second has only two. "And I believe it / Every time" is the shortest stanza and the most exposed, and it comes straight after the angry opening. The brevity makes it read like an admission the speaker would rather not make. There is almost no rhyme, which keeps the tone casual and unpolished, until the last stanza, where "trying" and "crying" finally chime. After so many unrhymed lines, the rhyme closes the poem like a lock clicking shut, and it ties the other person's effort to the speaker's pain in a single sound.

The imagery moves through the body. "You feed me" casts the other person as someone who force-feeds, and the next stanza completes the thought: "It's sickening." The poem never says nausea outright, but the logic of feeding and sickness runs underneath. Then comes "crave," a word of appetite and addiction, so the same thing that sickens the speaker is also what the speaker hungers for. The two verbs "pull me back" and "pick me back up" add a physical push and tug, as if the speaker were on a line being reeled in. "Drop" and "pick up" treat the speaker like an object, something carried and put down at someone else's convenience.

That sense of being an object shows in the grammar. Nearly every action in the poem belongs to "you": you feed, you pull, you drop, you come around, you pick up. The speaker is the grammatical object of those verbs and gets only two verbs of their own, "believe" and "crave," both of which are feelings rather than choices. The speaker has no verb for leaving. The other person's speech is similarly thin. Their only words are two quoted promises, "I love you" and "I won't leave." The second is a promise defined by a negative, a vow about not doing something, and in the speaker's mouth even that little pledge is quoted like evidence.

The last stanza is the most painful, and it turns on a small grammatical choice: "Even if you did start trying." The "did" is faintly doubtful, as though change is a hypothetical the speaker can barely picture. The poem then swaps the present tense for "would always end," a forecast rather than a description. Even the imagined better future ends the same way, "With me in a pillow / Face down crying." The pillow is the poem's only listener, and the position, face down, suggests crying that must be muffled and hidden. Anger gives way to helplessness here, and the profanity of the title is left far behind.

Judging by the name attached to it, "escape_artist," there is a bitter irony in a poem about being unable to get away. The name may be a deliberate joke or a coincidence, and the text itself does not settle it. What the poem does show is the quiet honesty of someone who refuses to cast themselves as only a victim. They admit the craving, the believing and the returning. That is what makes the poem significant for a reader. It does not offer advice or a tidy ending. It captures how an unhealthy relationship can hold on even when the person inside it sees it clearly, and it does so in language simple enough that anyone can recognise the feeling.

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