i am what can — Summary

Francis ScudellariThursday, March 14, 2013Inspired

i find, and i've found the seconds stay still, and they move faster as i count them. i've counted them slow and fast. i'll slow them down, and settle in the middle of them, slide in right between them. in their gaps, i was, and i am, a wish. i can, and i will, wish me there, and wish her, and him, and her again, all of us wishes. i wished us as those wishes spelled out in smiles. we're smiles meant to wrinkle, and increase with that wrinkling. we, as wishes creased the freckled, and the pale, the mahogany skin on bridges of noses. we are, we'll be those wishes written out in sparkling green, gray, blue, brown, black eyes. i have, and we have sparkled. we sparkle being them, whether those wishes come true, or whether or not i am and can be, and they're all now, the seconds, here with me.

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The speaker plays with time, treating seconds as something that can be slowed, sped up, and even entered. By counting them, they seem to change speed, and the speaker decides to settle between them, in the small gaps where a person can simply exist as a wish.

From there the poem widens. The speaker wishes themselves into that space, then wishes other people there too: "her, and him, and her again." Everyone becomes a wish, and those wishes take the shape of smiles, wrinkled skin, freckled or pale or mahogany faces, and eyes in every colour. The imagery is warm and physical, as if hope shows up in the lines of a face.

The mood is tender, hopeful, and quietly joyful. What matters most is not whether the wishes come true. The speaker says "we sparkle being them" either way. By the end, the seconds are no longer something to chase or measure. They are simply "here with me."

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