did i mention?

did i mention the times i prayed to be happy? or the times when i wish i wasn't sad? or the times in between where i know i'd be nowhere without it?

did i tell you how much you meant to me? how you crushed me? and how you left me?

did i ever mention how much i hate myself? how every time i look in the mirror i feel repulsive? how i despise my own image?

did i mention those nights? those nights where i cried myself to sleep? those nights when i could still cry?

did i forget to mention that i want to end it all? to get far away from here? for everything i've lived for and start something new?

did i ever mentioned how i hated you? how you destroyed me? how it didn't matter because you'd never be friend, only foe?

did i mention? no? i'm sorry, i probably forgot