i shouldn't.

i should be use to this. i should be use to the stamped. i should be use to the giggling. i should be use to the kisses and hugs. i should be use to the happiness and joy. but since i have not felt them in so long it feels foreign. it shouldn't. but it does. and even though i do have the love now that I've wanted for long, i just can't help but feel that it's all fake. that it'll go away when i least expect it. i shouldn't feel this way, but i do. i do, i do, i do. maybe I'm just being paranoid. but maybe i'm, just maybe I'm right.