«I've tried everything to move on since you first…» — Poem analysis

I've tried everything to move on since you first broke my heart From counseling and church To poetry and art. Yet still nothing is working no matter how hard I search For memories like chains bind my soul And I cannot break free Without cutting off my hand, Without forgetting you and me. I've tried ignoring the chains of the past And though this seemed to ease my pain The illusions of freedom would not last For when you finally came back with a ring of keys You unlocked my sorrow once again And left me still chained and on my knees. Now you've left me once more in this dungeon of depression And my only escape is through the art of suppression I failed last time but I'll try once more For now I remember what I need to forget And This time I will be freed for sure But I haven't forgotten everything yet Though right now I am void of emotion Forgetting you takes much more devotion Cause I can't break free just by forgetting the bad Since it is remembering the good times that keep me so sad So my dear warden this is my final goodbye To the love I once knew but no longer I'll cry.

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Heartbreak is usually pictured as a wound, but the speaker of "Hand 2 Heart" treats it as a prison sentence. Someone has broken the speaker's heart, left, come back, and left again. The poem is an inventory of failed escape attempts: "counseling and church," "poetry and art," then plain ignoring. The central idea arrives in the final lines, and it is a cruel one. Forgetting the bad times will not work, because "it is remembering the good times that keep me so sad." The chains are made of love as much as of hurt.

The imagery of captivity is carried through with unusual consistency. Memories are "chains" that "bind my soul." The lover returns "with a ring of keys," and the speaker ends up "on my knees" in a "dungeon of depression," finally addressing the lover as "my dear warden." The keys are the most interesting detail. A key should mean release, yet these keys "unlocked my sorrow once again." The one person who could open the cell only reopens the wound, so the speaker's freedom seems to depend on the person who imprisoned them. The word "dear" in "dear warden" quietly shows that affection hasn't died. The image of the hand works similarly. The speaker cannot escape "without cutting off my hand," like a prisoner who would have to amputate to slip a shackle. The two parallel "Without" lines make that sacrifice equal to "forgetting you and me." The poem never says whose hand this is. Judging by the title, which links hand to heart, it might be the hand that was held, or the hand that makes the poetry and art, but the text leaves this open.

The language also turns against itself in revealing ways. "Art" appears early as a cure, rhymed with "heart," and returns near the end as "the art of suppression," a skill of hiding feeling rather than expressing it. The same word has reversed direction. "Now I remember what I need to forget" is a small paradox, since trying to forget means keeping the memory alive. When the speaker claims to be "void of emotion," the numbness is offered as progress, yet it takes "devotion" to maintain. That word belongs to love, and using it for forgetting suggests the speaker is still committed to the person they are trying to leave.

The form supports this sense of being stuck. The poem is one unbroken block of twenty-six lines with no stanza breaks and no place to pause, like a mind running the same loop. The rhythm is loose and conversational. The first line is long and breathless, and then the list "From counseling and church / To poetry and art" shrinks to a quick checklist. The rhyme begins loosely, with "heart" and "art" firmly paired while "church" and "search" only faintly echo each other. Later it tightens into couplets: "depression" and "suppression," "emotion" and "devotion," "bad" and "sad," "goodbye" and "cry." The effect is of a lock clicking shut, though it also exposes the poem's weak spots. "No longer I'll cry" bends its word order to land on the rhyme, and phrases like "broke my heart" and "on my knees" are well-worn.

What lifts the poem above a standard breakup lament is its honesty about not being finished. The ending is a vow, not a victory. The speaker admits "I failed last time," and the insistent "this time I will be freed for sure" sounds like someone persuading themselves. Even the last line puts the promise in the future tense, and the speaker concedes, "I haven't forgotten everything yet." The poem offers no neat healing. It shows recovery as a repeated, uncertain effort, and in its final insight it names something many readers will recognise: the memories that hurt most are the happy ones.

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