Not Anymore

Searching for the right path in life. But I'm over everything and more. It all looks like it should, Me looking happy and things looking right. But I'm dying inside I need something else. My drug isn't here and I need another addiction to satisfy my needs. What happens when you die more and more inside over something that shouldn't be there? Can you not just say I want it all to end? To be done with everything and move on, Just kill the source of your problems......Yourself? Not any more Will I stand here and let myself be hurt over and over again. Be confused again and again about the little things. Not any more I will I take the lead I want to let it all drag me along Through the unending pain And broken glass that's our path. Not any more Will I cause all this in my life I don't want it Then why does it find me How do I get rid of it all? Not any more Will the pain consume me? Because my facade is back I'm sick and tired of how I feel I'll bottle it up and send it to the seas Not any more Will I drift in shame? Because that never ending pain in a bottle Loves to find its way back to me And my leaking boat. Not any more Do I want to fill the holes that let in the water? Let my ship drown in sorrow and pain That's what I'll do Because it's not getting easier it's getting worse. Not anymore....