if only

If only I could remember the small details If only I could remember the things you said If only I could be me in front of everyone else like I do in front of you If only I wasn't to scared to hug you then maybe I could've gotten a proper goodbye If only I was able to flaunt who I am in front of those bullies and make them seem smaller and more of a loser than me If only I could be me If only I could stand in front of my crush and not shout something stupid and wave my hands in the air and run away If only I could say my opinions and not be ridiculed by people who don't understand the things I do If only If only