Weak strength

An oxymoron. An expression. I feel that I'm strong. But weak all the same. My muscles are condtioned. But my feelings are weak. Like an urge I can't fight. I can't resist you. But I can flip tractor tires. I can't stop loving you. But I can curl 135. I can't stop staring at you. But I can leg press 550. This isn't right I know. Like a bomb wanting to blow. Who will go. So I'm strong But weak. Not knowing what I seek. Yet I wonder everyday of the week.